Normally I keep a lot inside... but right now I am losing it.
My pain is way up... No one can see it... I hide in my bedroom in the dark most of the time and 99% of the time I only come out when no one is around. I can't take the pain anymore. It even hurts to breath.

I guess why I am writing is because I want to thank everyone here for all of their knowledge and support for each other but I believe it's my time to say goodbye to everyone... I just can't go on.

Good luck to all and I wish you well.