hello, by ur 2nd sentence i was sayin yes yes yes! u r clearly a brave spirit, willing to listen to the inner voice and consider that answers can be found within. it is a rather epic journey isnt it?

i am honored by ur comments, and impressed by ur courage. ur body DOES know its own perfection, its simply misremembered it. every single particle has in it the mechanism to recreate what once existed. consider that b4 its injury it worked ok, then neurons were interupted in their normal process, signals got confused and became rewired, creating a new program. what once worked as it should is now disfunctional. so if it can be switched to a new icky program it can also be switched once again to work as it once did.

i lived the anger, helplessness, all that and more and go figure it never generated peace or health. and while i have a daily mantras requesting comfort for this body i can accept that there remain lessons to learn and this is currently how i'm intended to learn them. i am crazy blessed to have had the gift of awakening.

i am so sorry u cannot immerse urself in forests and walk, know that i offer all the blessings of my day to those who do not have such wonders to heal them, i take u all with me. soon my meadow will xplode into a river of wild flowers, with puddles of them here and there and i have been known to go to my knees in awe and gratitude at such bounty, and that too i send out to those who cannot image such beauty.

trust urself, find the stillness inside and listen, the answers reside with u always, school is in, ur body is ur classroom, listen and learn its ways and u will absolutely find peace, love, health.

blessings from my Serenity