We're here for you. You have too much to deal with by yourself. It will take a lot of time to heal. It becomes a way of life.
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Originally Posted by Silent2
Hello,
I am so glad to be here. Everyone seems so nice.
I am a person who has a Traumatic Brain Injury from a car accident. The person who hit me had his cell phone on the floor. He was speeding; his cell phone went off and he let go of the steering wheel with both hands and looked for his phone. He never saw me. I have multiple body injuries from the impact and more than one part of my brain is injured. I work every day to get better and sometimes I get tired of it.
I was fussed at tonight by my friend because I no longer keep my apartment spit spot like I did before the car wreck. She just doesn't get it. She thinks I'm lazy instead of so overwhelmed I walk from room to room and don't know what to do.
I feel lost. My years in college seem wasted now. I can't remember a thing I learned. My home is filled with wonderful books that are old friends. I can't read them any more. My spoken grammar is shot and I can't spell worth a darn. I get lost, my memory is shot and I don't know who I am anymore. I've lost part of my sight because my brain can no longer recognize everything that my left eye transmits to it. I walked right into a column and bounced off it this evening because I forgot I can't see to the far left anymore. I'm sore all over from it. Yet my family and most of my friends expect me to step up to the plate and just "get over it" because "after all, it's been six months".
In a way though, good things have come out of this. Since I can't hide in books and writing any more, I've had to come face to face with myself. I am tentatively discovering this new person that I am and I've learned a bunch of humility that I didn't want, but probably needed. I also know I could be so very much worse. I am so very blessed in that regard. The Drs told me they don't know why I'm alive. I don't either, but I know God works in mysterious ways.
I look forward to making friends here.
Best,
Silent2
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