Me? not so good the last few days. I went to UF MDS and got new stimulator settings. I came home taking maybe 1-2 pills a day then it went to 1 every 2 hrs, 1 1/4 and now i'm at 2 pills every 2-3. I'm not upset at them, heck this thing is no picnic for anyone. I'm just sort of depressed and frustrated at the whole thing. I've been like this now for 11 years, I was really hoping for some marked results from the DBS and I know that I have greatly improved. That is evident (just turn it off for a minute). I'm just so damned tired of being tired, being achy, not able to move to do things during the day, I'm angry that when I get somewhere like the table and i sit -my timer goes off and it's time for meds but I have to wonder will I be better off getting it or asking my daughter or wife to get it and listening to the sigh, the comments "why did you leave it ...." "didn't you know what time it was...' I'm just really frustrated and depressed right now. Then the sex thing came up yesterday... I had feelings but my body wasn't with it so it went nowhere. discussion of the issue consisted of why do I need a pill-levitra then whats wrong with the present way things are -every 10-12 days or so. Well that's just not enough and I feel that the levitra will help, she doesnt. then it moved on to what if I'm in the mood and shes not-well now i've got some nerve expecting her to ingratiate me with no need on her part. Mornings are the worst, I'm off and I try to get my meds in and get outta bed to walk 3 dogs. Part of the problem is that I have always done well. I've always done it all, cooked, the kitchen, shopping, etc. My wife has severe agoraphobia and OCD and as such has problems leaving the house. Not to be rude but her OCD and paranoia at germs is such that she will not perform oral sex due to my parts being "dirty". She does not mind sex but that it is it we can have sex, nothing else. I'm not some sort of kinky freak but I like to be taken care of, she wants to lay there, simply lay there and I can do the deed that's it. And lately I have no energy at the night time when I am off and collapse into bed so I don't really mind but wow, how about if she did, nope thats outta the pic. Last month she has started on Zoloft which I am well aware of the sexual side effects but it has seemed to help her a lot , I am on it too and I know it helps. we've had this problem for all our years. To be simple I dont think that its too much for a wife or other to provide for the needs of the other person even if you don't feel like it yourself. Believe me I'm not a freak I feel I'm just a normal male. This is a simple case of if you are a man take care of her special wants, be it hanging pictures doing the little goofy things. But as for me a little bit of below the belt would go a long way. For the mental therapy part I wouldn't want to find another medication for us, we've been through a lot and this seems to be the best we've had it believe it or not. I was laying in bed today, needing my sinemet timer from the kitchen counter, the dogs needed food to be put down and I would have loved to have a drink of water. I asked my wife to make sure the dogs had some food put down for them. I just got a renewal on my life insurance and believe it or not 20 yrs ago I signed for automatic garanteed renewal, at same levels! You don't know what you've got sometimes. What a blessing! I hope to hear back from the clinic at UF tommorrow. This is really depressing. I know that I'll find the answer to our problems, probably in a couple of dayys i'll reside myself to the way that things are, I know enough that I'm not gonna change the situation here, I've been in it too long. I know. I'm the one that everyone else watches doing stuff around here. We have by no means brought our girls up this way, one doesn't live at home any more and one that does is truly blind to all that goes on. She doesnt think about the trash needs to go out , the dogs need to be walked, the laundry has a load to be switched. Her world is the iphone to her ear and when she was working the 6 hours of working at a jewelry store that absolutely killed her. Now at home on unemployment but she's doing better at helping out. Tommorrow we're moving into a 3 br apt so my wife can have her office space again and my daughter can have a place to paint.. HMM, I was on the job toting plywood at noon when I got out of school at 9 am the morning I graduated early. Did 48 hr shifts for 10 yrs- (firefighter shifts doubled on the ambulance too.) Now they talk of a double shift as when you work 4 then get held over to do the next 4 cause a co worker didn't show! Please!!! I need to just go and get a drink, take a nap and maybe we'll wake up in Oz. Thanks for the ear..