BLESS YOU HEART!!!I, too, believe God works in mysterious ways... Most everyone here at NT can identify with you. So you have come to a good place. Please stay around and write often. Get to know the sweet, wonderful people here. They will be a life saver on a daily basis. My prayers are with you. Though my label is different from yours, some of what you go through sounds very familiar. We don't know why this has happened. But it sounds as though you are staying as positive as you can and looking for the blessings through it all. There are good days and bad days...just know we are here for you through it all.