Sherrie, that was beautifully said. It's a switch I need to make, I know that, and yet I don't know it. Theory and practice vary so much. I need to learn to think differently about the whole situation (coping strategies?). I should look at it the other way, and stop fighting a fight I can't win. I should be able to say, should be saying to myself, this pain medication gives me control to improve my quality of life. Quality of life!!! It's still hard, I am trying and I do take the meds (but often too late, when the pain has broken through completely, instead of when I start to feel pain seeping through), but I still haven't quite accepted it yet, that it's there for life. I do try. It don't always cope well.

What you say is so familiar. I can't handle stressful situations well either, or people who drain me, or pressure, because it sends me and my body into some kind of overdrive and the pain and symptoms get worse or seem worse - it's like I can't switch off anymore. I too watch as much news as I can take, and try not to worry too much, but there are times when it's inevitable. Some things are thrust upon you no matter what.

I'm really grateful for your replies, and I appreciate the support! Thank you!