((blue)) ((steve)) ((mistiis)) Thank you all very much for your support

You know it is hard trying to be "fair" to the issue because my pain certainly effects my ability to see through the truth I know you are all expressing.

I have known all my life the depths of Dad's love for me. But Mistiis you are so right, it is the worst type of rejection... and as ((alffe)) says, the ultimate FU. I guess what I need is time to sort through the pain enough,,, that I can find my way back to the love we shared.

Perhaps one day I will be able to forgive that we didn't get to say goodbye? I am working really really hard to separate the act, from the man. Hard work... but perhaps with time and my sos family I may get there yet

((curious)) wrote " It's a long hard road Nikki. It winds around. You will have detours and go off the road, but you will get there. We will all see you there."

I have no doubt if anyone can, it would be all of you. You saw me through all of last year.... times when I truly didn't think I could survive..... yet here I still am Thank you all for helping me to just keep swimming