SORRY to here that you are going through sooooo much. I am glad you found the sight. There are several men on here also so they will come in and help you.

As far as the suicide, I would recommend councelling. I have been in councelling for over 10 years due to the RSD. I became so suicidal that my PCP got his whole office involved in keeping me going. Now they are all my friends.

With a councellor, you can talk to him/her about anything. They can help you to understand things that your own family can't and they give support also.

Hang in there and hang around here. You will get some great advice.

Ada