Hi there babie_racer, and welcome to SOS.

I'm another who's lost a family member to suicide but we do have several members who've had a tough time in the past, through suicidal thoughts and actions.

It makes no difference which category you fit into, just know that everyone is welcome and if any of us can help you in any way..... you only have to ask.

Welcome again, it's good to have you with us.