Dear BJ
Thank you for sharing that..........i can hear Your pain as you write........
But your story like many others.....i promise you...will enter the minds of some readers out there ......and prevent suicide..............and .comfort...those experiencing similar circumstances. to yourself
....and above all it LET's YOUR THOUGHTS OUT.
An ex war vetran who was a prisoner of war described his incarceration, as intolerable beyond words.....he said the thought of possible death was always more comforting, than remaining trapped and helpless within the camp.....He escaped 3 times from German prisoner of war camps......each time knowing death could be his ultimate punishment...........The end of the war ultimately saved his life.............
Those who suffer suicidal thoughts often pre-plan, others are Recklessly spontaneuoes,...but unlike the above story.........only the person suffering these thoughts ...truly .knows what they are trying to escape..........
MOUNTAINS & MOLEHILLS
David