I am so confused by the way things are worked where you live. So how old are you and when you go to college do you live away from home cause you are so young?When you say placement it is like working on the job and then you have course work in a classroom? I hope that if you feel this is in your best interest and you talk to these people and explain hopefully they will give you a chance. If you are unable to do this now can you start at a later time or go in a different direction? Like here in the US some kids will go to community college rather then a big university or take a skilled training class that is like a year and you get a certificate. I hear you of course in different struggles what a barrier rsd is but hopefully oneday with finding the right treatment for us it will be less of a road block and more like a u turn if that makes any sense. I wish I had more of your go get attitude because right now I am in a funk of motivation but trying to regain it. You are an inspiration