Yes David that was very painful for me to write. Somethings I don't even realize until I write them down. That's why my pdoc is so insistent to keep journaling. It would have been so much easier if it wasn't thought out. That's what I've always had a hard time understanding. He was a kid for goodness sake.
The Catcher in the Rye is a book everyone has read. I remember falling in love with this speech and realized it was so fitting for Mark.
"
This fall I think you're riding for - it's a special kind of fall, a horrible kind. The man falling isn't permitted to feel or hear himself hit bottom. He just keeps falling and falling. The whole arrangement's designed for men who, at some time or other in their lives, were looking for something their own environment couldn't supply them with. Or they thought their own environment couldn't supply them with. So they gave up looking. They gave it up before they ever really even got started."
Just substitute boy for man because he never got started on the road to manhood.
