This has been bothering me since I edited it and I have to get it out. The reason I edited it was that I said I was angry at God. I'm not though, He just confuses me sometimes.
When I was in the hospital the pdoc there said there's 5 stages of grief: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. They don't happen in any particular order. When I posted that I was angry. At who? I don't really know. My mind was all over the place and then I hit bottom. That's when I did "it". And this is where I'm stuck right now. I'm sorry I said it and I didn't mean to but I was out of control. I hope you understand.