(((((((((Blue)))))))))))
I am re-reading a book by Philip Yancey called "Where is God When It Hurts" that is again ministering to me so deeply. If you are able to get a copy of it I really recommend it.
Yancey is very real in his writing...he doesnt just throw out cliche`d answers but gets down deep where our doubts and fears live and looks at them honestly in the light of faith
I dont know that we will ever have clear answers to "why?" this side of heaven....but I do know from personal experience that God is with us in the midst of it, just as He has promised.
Have you ever heard a song by Ginny Owens called "If You Want Me To"
Always ministers deep to my spirit
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QtNzOpKvPfw
praying you

(and all of us

) will find His Peace in the midst of the storm