First thank you for your thoughts. I really appreciate it. Second I am an idiot so we went this morning and my apt is tomorrow the 6th. I was up most of the night worring and already am apprehensive about this. So tomorrow we go back. They tried to get me into today as the schedule people are so sweet at the hospital but they can only do 1 a day and they already had someone there. So I will let you guys know tomorrow or the next depending how I feel. I am super concerned right now about my vision and that pain with combo of my leg is draining me.
Side notes Sbowling I tried to use some coping skills yesterday but was limited in how I felt but at least tried. I know my mom wants the best for me and I feel bad and was not exactly pleasant this morning again. I just feel very trapped in pain and being controlled I guess though of course she is doing everything in her power for me and what will help me. Just feel some things right now should be up to me not her and also I don't like the fact about being told how to cope mentally through this and not just from her but others.
MslDay thank you for sharing your experience. It helps when I hear others have been through this and benefited. I hope you continue to do well
Thanks to everyone else too I appreciate it