I got my TBI in 98. I've lost everything, two business's, my wife, my children (from first marrige, whom I raised, stopped speaking to me), and needless to say, life is like ****.

You don't mention any meds that you take, I hear and am beginning to suspect Keppra as one that brings out violent emotions and depression. READ the literature that comes with your meds, or look them up.

I had a subdural hematoma, a hygroma deep in around the top of brain stem. Three years later, I hit a patch of ice in a nice big Buick, and hit the concrete barrier. Thank goodness for those second gen air bags and the seat belt. Oddly enough, (like the three stooges, hit larry on the head once, he's got amnesia, hit him again, he's ok), that "soft hit" was enough to relieve some pressure or let it move around in my skull. Because the doctors would Not operate to relieve the pressure.
I seemed to "wake up", from being asleep all the time.

Another that helps me a lot is a couple of the Alzheimer's meds. Aricept and Razadyne.
They really clear the "fog" for me.

I take Zonegran at bedtime to prevent migraine, and imetrex, maltrex, etc. for when I get them.
And, i do get them. I take cymbalta also for the depression/pain.

I have RSD as well and TOS, discs, and so forth.
Sleeping is an entire ordeal.

Do you have a good neurologist?
Pain management or neuropsychologist?
I think you should have those two at least, and have seen a neurosurgeon.
I'm not a doctor, that's just my experience.

I know just what you mean about nothing being fun, and not caring.
Sometimes i feel as though I'm just barely holding it together.

From the little I know about you, I think that's what I can say.
But, I'll keep an eye here, and so will others.
PM me if you wish.

Pete
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