Hi, I talked to my mom and she didn't care if her hair was colored today or not, so I forced myself to go out for a few hours. It was great! I enjoyed just being with friends, the football was on, but we had a few drinks and food.

I got invited to a New Years Eve Party, not sure if I am going to go or not. It's my friend that barmaids there, plus she said her and her husband have plenty of room to stay over, so I wouldn't have to worry about drinking and driving on New Years Eve, even though I don't drink enough to worry, it would just be my luck to get pulled over. It' tough here especially now during the holidays they have DUI task forces set up everywhere.


I brought home a salad for me, and a French Dip sandwich and potato salad for my mom, she ate it all. Then I made a meatloaf for tomorrow, it's in the fridge just sitting and marinating I guess you could say.

Fed the dogs, did a load of laundry and now just chilling. Having a bad pain flare up, so going to have to take a pain pill with my meds tonight, maybe I should shut that window in my bedroom too. Been waking up all stiff and achy and headaches from dryness maybe.

Tomorrow I have plenty to do around the house and Tuesday too. Wednesday the dogs have to go to the groomers at 9am, Thursday I have PT at 9:30am, and Friday I have my DV appt. at noon.

Have to call my mom's PCP tomorrow for a follow up, and I want her anti-depressant changed, she has been on Prozac far to long and it isn't working anymore, and maybe a change from her Xanax for anxiety to something else, and PT for sure. She is up for it, thank GOD. She is drinking lots of water and soda, and her sweet tooth has kicked in big time, that is normal for people that quit drinking. Her appetite is good too.

So, thats that......I can't believe next weekend is Xmas weekend, I hate to say this, but I really miss my husband, I don't hate him, I know he needs help, so what is wrong with me, I am even worried about him. I am so stupid, I know that. I just can't seem to turn off my feelings yet.

Enough of my depressing thoughts, I have enough to worry about, so shouldn't even be talking about me and well him.

Hugs, Nikko