Jen, have you read into some of the stories here on NT? There really are MANY that share our,,Your,,feelings! I also understand when you say you don't want to worry your family! I did the same & still have NO idea why?? Why didn't I want them to know?? But anyway...I hear ya!
Scared,,,do you know of what? I finally figured why I used to be.....but that can wait...Right now I want you to know that at the very least...you never have to be lonely again,,,,you have new friends right here! Please always know this & never feel afraid to reach out....No one here will judge you!.....