Thanks for that, my night was hell, and so far is my day. I am just so fed up with it all.
As for me, I am 29 soon to be 30 on the 22nd. I like to be with my friends, well, at least try and be with them. I am dissociating a lot lately. I am totally not myself, and it's hard to be around people. My good friend is graduating college on Friday and I am going to go. I am scared that there are going to be so many people there that am going to panic, or something bad is going to happen. I don't want to dissapoint her, but I don't know how I am going to make it through. I don't have anyone to go with, so maybe will try and just go and be. I know that she is counting on me, and that kinda sucks too. I want to die so bad, I just don't know what to do anymore. I can't count on myself for anything anymore.