Welcome to neurotalk. Do you have a pastor who you can talk to? I think that he can help you with this.
We are getting close. Read Matthew 24 in the New Testiment. Bible prophecy is coming to pass.
I felt the same way. Then I realized I'm going to have to be patient. Blessed are those who are ready,for they will see Him in the clouds,and there will be Great Glory on that day.
Please be patient. Brokenfriend