Hi Monica and Welcome to NT!! It's nice to meet you, but sorry it has to be here. So sorry you've been going through a rough time. Yes, we do go through an actual grieving period for the life we had and expected to have forever. But as others have said, it does get better and a place like this is wonderful for the help in getting us over the bumps in the road.
Have you asked for any literature from your local MS Society? Maybe your meds need an up-date?? Feel free to ask away -- we're here for you!
All the best in your MS journey!