I went to the doctor 2 days ago and found out that i have no been reduced to have 4 surgeries and i feel like i am losing it... I am not sure i can go through these surgeries... I am not prepared for all of this.. They want me first to go through another rib recession on left side for my TOS... OMG was the right side painful i don’t want to go through it again on the left... Shortly after that a breast reduction ... Man i am not even sure i want to do that I know they are large i am sitting at an 38 I right now... Yes i said a 38I... i know they are large.. but still... that is such a personal decision... Then they want to place a temporary stimulator in my upper neck and then a permanent one.. I am so nervous i just feel lost for words... they want all of this done asap.. again I am going through the thing where they can barley find a pulse on my left side i just I am so lost all i can do is cry.....


It also doesn’t help i don’t have a support system right now... ever since my house burned down my support system has gone to the crapper... I am sitting here all by my self with these huge life decisions to make... I just don’t know if any of these surgeries are worth my while... but they could change my life and make it much better its like a damned if i do damned if i don’t type of situation....

If you guess have any suggestions let me know... The doctor i seen i fully trust i am just really worried...

Hope you all have a pain free day and gentle hugs to all...