Responsibility:

I have a responsibility to those I love...
to be loving, patient, considerate, and kind;
to be loyal, respectful, and honest;
to be appreciative, encouraging, and comforting
to share myself and care for myself
To be the best possible "Me".

BUT

I am not responsible for them...
not for their achievements, successes, or triumphs;
not for their joy, gratification, or fulfillment;
not for their defeats, failures, or disappointments;
not for their thoughts, choices, or mistakes.
And not for their suicide.
For had I been responsible, this death would not have occurred.
~ Author Unknown

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"For had I been responsible, this death would not have occurred."

This has helped me more than any of the reading I have done. I think I will always have guilt, I think most survivors do. But, I will no longer let that guilt comsume me and make me feel Dad's sucide was somehow my fault. I will forever wish he had let me know.... but he didn't... sigh