((Sue)) I see your point, and its a good one
I try to never judge, honestly I do. But in this, my Dad's suicide, I don't like the feelings his death brought ..more than I dislike judging him.
It isn't right to judge, and I know this. But there are times when something impacts your life so greatly one does judge. I wish the world was full of fairies and pixie dust... but it isn't.
I can't heal if I am not honest about what and how I feel.... So yes, I am guilty of judging Dad. I probably should feel badly about it, but I don't. It doesn't mean I don't still love him with all my heart - I do. It only means he broke my heart and his act has destroyed my world.