Hi and welcome! Sorry I didn't see this earlier.

First year is tough, and having sugery doesn't make it any easier. Glad to hear you're going to talk to your doc about the meds and maybe get a tweak that will help you out.

Be kind to yourself. I remember the first year of DX, and the emotional rollar coaster I was on. There is some light at the end of the tunnel that has nothing to do with a train.

It seems like a cliche, and it sounded like it to me too when I first started out , but "live one day at a time" has become a good mantra for me to remember with this stuff. Always thought it was a flakey idea, but eventually helped me look at things differently.

Please know if you ever have questions or need to vent, feel free to do so!