Thanks, guys. It went well. I actually had the nerve to get up and do a eulogy. Everyone was quite impressed, so I guess I did a good job. I do think it was a pretty nice eulogy that only scratches the surface of Grandma's amazing life. It took me days of writing and editing and just walking away from the computer before I got to the final version. I didn't even cry and sob through it. My voice only cracked a couple of times.

Honestly, I think I'm pretty numb and kind of in a weird in between state right now. It doesn't seem real. I felt like I should be crying, but I couldn't. I cried for 3 days straight last week and now I just cry at random times. Maybe I cried my limit of tears for the month of May? I do feel a little guilty for not being more emotional, though.

After the service, we had a little dinner in the church basement. We had sandwich ring from a local deli, veggies, soup, salad and breadsticks (from Olive Garden) and everyone seemed to enjoy that. I had a much needed glass of wine.

One of the neatest things is that a local board buddy from the other MS board came to the service. We have stayed good friends, but only see each other a few times a year and it was so nice to see her again.

Now I feel kind of tired and drained and have to get on with the business of wrapping up Grandma's affairs but I really can't seem to feel motivated to do that. It's so sad. When she was still here, I used to sit in her room and pay her bills with her and now it just seems so empty to write the checks with both of our names on them.

Sometimes it just doesn't feel right that "life goes on".