Hi, and Welcome to NT
Glad you found us. I don't have the answers for you either. I think you're a very strong-willed person to overcome so many drug dependencies, if they truely were causing you dependency issues.
For starters, here's a link to the medication forum:
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum72.html
Then you may find some peace in the spiritural forum:
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum27.html
It can't hurt. I find peace in my spirituality.
I hope you find some peace for your anxieties. I have dealt with anxiety I guess all my life. First you have to recognize the signs of "RED ALERT." Until you reach "RED ALERT" levels of anxiety it's okay to be anxious about some things. Not everything, though. Find some good on the other hand. Ask yourself what the other end of the spectrum would be like. It's within our reach too.
And it may be my anxiety kicking in but times are bad everywhere. Reason for concern. Yes, I do see some good... some, but it's really hard times coming our way. We need to get stronger if we can.
Here's a link to the anxiety forum:
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum50.html
You're not alone.
We understand...