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Join Date: Oct 2006
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Join Date: Oct 2006
Posts: 1,194
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I know my tdoc has recently been to a workshop about this sort of schema thing, as she has previously told me about an example where all the participants were given a task to think of something that goes through their head and that holds them back from doing what they want to do in their lives, such as "I'm never good enough" ... "I'm a bad person" ... "I'm a failure", and that sort of thing. And so at the start of the workshop, she told me that they had to write one of these statements on a sticker, and they had to wear this sticker as a name tag! So people had name tags on their shirts that said - "Tom - "LOSER" ... or "BJ - "FAILURE" and that sort of thing. At the time she told me about this, I remember thinking that I could NEVER do that, and wear as a name tag a thought or feeling that was so painful and deeply felt! So I am thinking that this nursery rhyme task came from the same workshop.
Lately as soon as I walk into her room and she asks "How are you today?" I just burst into tears. Not sure where that comes from, even if I had a not so bad week, I get in there and I cry.
She asks what is going on, I tell her nothing really happened this week, went to work, went to PT etc, nothing major, no trigger. Yet I cry like I’m traumatized.
I have been trying to avoid all trauma work/memories right now because it is busy time at work trying to catch up after tax season, but it might be coming through somehow. Not sure how to make the crying stop though.
I don’t believe I could tolerate doing this task without feeling majorly self conscious and humiliated. And I still can't figure out how this is going to help the shame and self loathing very much.
This is all so confusing sometimes. I am sure she just thinks I’m a hopeless case.
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Cats nap, only humans put them "to sleep". Sterilize, don't euthanize!!
BJ
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