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Join Date: Oct 2006
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Senior Member
Join Date: Oct 2006
Posts: 1,194
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I must have gotten really worked up about this new technique of hers and have formed some sort of mental barrier to it. I’m trying to be open to this task. I know she often asks me just to "trust her" on some things that I get quite panicky about And although she hasn’t said to trust her about this task as yet, maybe I should be a bit more open to trying new things that may feel strange at first. Right now I can’t even think of a song and I see her on Thursday again. I’ve blocked a lot of my childhood out and have to find a nursery rhyme I remember. I have my self-loathing words all typed out but putting it to song is so hard.
This is why I'm afraid to doubt her, to not trust her. I was talking about some painful memories during the session that related to dreams that I keep having. Right at the end of the session I said to her "I don't know how to get this out of my head, it keeps haunting me." She looked seriously at me and said "I think you DO know, it's just whether you want to."
Did she mean express my emotions, or something else? I have a feeling that might be it. I didn't like to ask her and now wish I had. Her words made me shiver at the time.
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Cats nap, only humans put them "to sleep". Sterilize, don't euthanize!!
BJ
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