I am sorry for all you have been through but gald you have a better outlook. I was thinking about this issue about the ups and downs mentally and physically. I have had this 2 years and 2 months. This month has been really hard for me mental and physical. I do see though from the start to now the way my mindset has changed. At first I looked for a cure and would not accept anything else and now I look for management. I also have had all the emotions the denial,anger,depression,anxiety. I too feel being as proactive as I can in the things I can do and regimine like you stated with meds,self help things,etc has helped. Hope things physically for you improve too. As they say the mind/body have a huge connection. Thank you for the positive post cause I am feeling a little blue and needed a good outlook post