Thank you a lot dear all for taking the time to read and more important, to reply and share with me beautiful thoughts

It is just extremely hard for me to live without a reason.... Every morning when I open my eyes, Am like, hum... what for ? I mean, I have no family.... I dont need money to take care of my family, as I dont need money, I dont need to "fight" for a job....

I work at the lab and Im like, hum, what for ? I dont have a reason.... that's it. I have like zero motivation....

Also, I think I have a big problem... Im too obssesed with things... I mean, if I start to paint as a hobby, I end painting 100 different pictures so I dont eat or sleep in the whole day... If I get involved listening to music, I fall in love with the singer and feel depressed because he doesnt even know Im in this planet... If I plan to travel, I get obssesed and want to make 10 trips in the same year, and when I cant, I feel sad and dont want to get out of bed....

How crazy and annoying is that !? At this point I dont know if it is better for me to have a hobby/motivation or not as I will get too much into it and that will give me trouble at the end...

WA !!! HELP PLEASE....