Jenni, thank you for talking about how you are feeling. Many of us have felt as you do now and we've lived to talk about it...to try to give someone else a reason to live.

Trust me when I tell you that your family would be forever changed if you took your life. They would have to live with the guilt and anger for the rest of their lives. You don't want to leave them with this kind of pain.

Have you read "Suicide, The Forever Decision?" It's an excellent book, written for people who are considering suicide..it's soft cover and not expensive.

Have you read the stickies at the top of the forum....Pter's wise words?
You will tell your drs. how you are feeling when you see them...right?
I'm wondering if you need an adjustment in your medicine.

Hang tough dear 30 year old lady...things change but you have to give them a chance and if you're dead it'll never happen.