Jen ,
It is good you are going to see both of those Doctors.
I know many of us have had to see doc after doc until we found one we felt comfortable with and could honestly "talk" to. That makes a HUGE difference.
Honey You would NOT be doing any one including yourself any kind of favor if you "just say good bye" . they are not being ...nice and patient with you ..THEY LOVE YOU nice and patient
comes with Love . and I have to say as I find this a fact even in death people dont let go of you. It has been over 25 years since I lost my dad ..I HAVE NOT LET GO OF HIM AND I NEVER WILL !! Death dose NOT make things easier
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I am sorry I must seem like I am a mean insensitive person .I am sorry... you are part of the family here and we are here for each other and I want to help if I can even if it is in a small way.
Please if you are having dark thoughts and ideas call the local suicide help line...keep reaching and fighting.
keep sharing and talking ... we care
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prayers for strength and healing to you Jen
PEACE
BMW