Thank you for your response. I have read that book. It's a very good book however, I don't know where mine is anymore. I don't know what to say to anyone anymore. I want to die so bad it hurts. Just the pain of thinking about what I want to do to myself hurts. I was just in the hospital and had a minor med adj. I thought it was working at first, but in the end nothing works. I just don't know what to do anymore.