I am very proud of you Jen. You have taken the right steps and have started talking again. Give it time, you have to heal yourself first. Your friends will start coming around more when you start caring about yourself. They can pick up on positive and negative thoughts. When you are down they tend to back off because they are scared or don't know what to say to comfort you.

Find something to do that will give you a moment's worth of purpose and build from there...small steps...you won’t climb Mount Everest this year in all probability, but you can find someone that is valued by you...also there are many people who have felt or are feeling this way so keep talking.

Sometimes we all just need to not feel alone. Sometimes we all just need somebody to care. I hope typing it out on this forum is helping to relieve some sort of suppressed feelings. Maybe by expressing your feelings in words (or other ways), you can start feeling better. I hope you find peace within yourself.

Stay on the path you are on, it leads you out of the darkness... I still hold you in my thoughts and good luck today.

Every morning, when we wake up, we have twenty-four brand-new hours to live. What a precious gift! We have the capacity to live in a way that these twenty-four hours will bring peace, joy, and happiness to ourselves and others.

Thich Nhat Hanh