damned if you do and damned if you don't.
my OH urges me to continue with my beta shots. I think I've got the timing right and now sleep through the awful flu stuff that I get.
We both work in the health service and ask as many doctors as we know what they think. They've all been pretty positive that no long term harm will come from it and that it's worth a shot.
I've put my faith in medicine and research, the evidence of which can be taken in many ways. 30% chances are good if you believe you're in the group; crap if you think of the 70% that aren't.

My big fear is that my hatred for this disease, what it has done to me, what it is taking away from me, becomes all encompasing and swallows me whole in a pit of despair and depression. but that's just me probably...