In 2005, after five years on C/L, amandatine and stalevo, convinced my wife of 25 years was plotting to destroy me, I filed for divorce, left my three lovely daughters, gave up my profession and became disdainful of those who had accepted me.
Alone I became obsessed with money spending my time gathering aluminum cans for the little they brought. Earlier I sold my cherished library of 700 books
for 225 dollars and took my ex back to court twice to correct what I regarded as an unfair settlement. During this "economic war" I waged against my family I nearly bankrupted those whom I loved.
The impact the drugs were having on me, became appearent last winter, when 2-3 months after upping my C/L by adding three 25/100 I began hallucinating and shortly started acting out on my paranoid thoughts. Convinced I was right I closed my mind to any evidence that contradicted the unreel world I had forged.
it wasn't until I reached rock bottom, with the help of good friends I came to terms with the depths of my paranoia and reached out for help. I can't say I'm totaly free of my fabricated thought patterns but by backing off the C/L and taking an anti psychotic I''m coming to terms with reality.