rach73-just thinking of you-hope you had a good day!! remember this is only one rotten year out of however many you ahve lived and hopefully you have many more to come!! my advice for for helping to get through rough times is to go out-even if you sit on the front steps 5 times a day for 10 mins!!! try to distract yourself however you find pleasure. if you need medicine /counseling try to get it and don't wonder what anybody else thinks!! they are not living your life- make it a good as you can however you can!! end of my mother sermon as my kids would say! but really i hope things are better for you-remember all of us are here for you!!