so sorry to hear how you are feeling. try hard to stay strong.i know exactly how you feel. i could be in a crowd of people these days and still feel alone.i try each day to think or do something to make the day worthwhile..you are not alone..keep posting when you get down..it helps me out alot and the people here are very understanding and caring...without being phoney...nice to find people like that these days...take care over the holiday's and stay in touch...moonstar