I wonder if I've told Nikki before that when my dad was in the nursing home with "dementia", altzheimers...what ever you want to call it..I could stand his anger, I could stand his not knowing us, what I could not stand was the rare occasion when he knew where he was and who we were.

I wonder if Nikki will just do whatever...including nothing today, in celebration of what was...what once brought her great joy.

I wonder if I can go take a nap..had an MRI this morning and took a valium..yawn