don't give up on this site...we all are hear to help one another...it took alot of time for me to get up the courage to start posting here and everyone has been very helpful..just to have someone read what i am going thru and send a quick reply i don't feel so alone..nice feeling to be able to know that we are not alone..you can have your highs and lows the trick is not to stay in that dark place for too long..even pull yourself out of it for a short time helps. what helps me is to know that if things seem to get real bad i can come here to vent, yell, scream or cry and not be judged....peace to you tonight..stay in touch...moonstar