Thank you, BMW. I just get so confused sometimes. I'm a very open person and sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be. I feel like I shouldn't trust people. And then, I think to myself, "if I don't trust people then what's the point of living and being an anti-social being?" which then leads to obvious suicidal thoughts. I want to trust people. I want to meet good people. I want to some day have a family.

Are there people here who have successfully overcome depression and suicidal tendencies and are happily married? Or should I start to become comfortable that I will be alone forever?

This all sounds so pitiful, I know. But these are real concerns for me. I want to be able to have a healthy relationship one day.