Hello Iris and welcome.

Sorry that you are dealing with this

You know, those symptoms could be many things...

I have had panic attacks that have made me feel out of this reality, do and say things that, later on, after the attack, I dont remember or that simply make me laugh like saying, "did i do that ?", if you know what I mean...

It can be a seizure too like Donna explained you...

And many more things come to mind but Im not a doctor so Im not sure ops:

I hate to read you dont feel comfortable with your doc I have been in that situation and it sucks...

You are in my prayers and hopefully all your problems will be better soon