Please, friends, please remind me to practice patience with myself. I think I'm so hard on myself. You guys are right--self confidence is key. Maybe I'll create a thread where I post one good thing that's happened in a day. I need to find something worth living. I need to find a coping method (thanks mistiis). I feel much calmer right now. But man, when I get in that mindset of "life isn't worth living," that's all I can think about. It's scary. Now that you've written me and my dad has called I feel a bit better. I am happy I found this board.