I've only posted a few times, but I'm sure it's quite apparent that I feel like finding a companion is hopeless given my mental state. I just wanted to share that watching the movie "Benny and Joon" ALWAYS helps me when I'm down. And I suggest anybody who feels like they're misunderstood should try and remember that we may find companionship when you least expect it. And I really truly hope that there are people (or maybe even that there is just ONE person) out there that can fall in love, romantically, with you as you are. That's my wish.