sssss for my dear sweet blue...it's ok to write about how you feel. That's what we are here for. You need to vent your feelings and not stuff them all inside where they can make you sick. It takes time to heal. The loss of the sight as you once had it is a loss, and you will grieve over it. That is normal. Grief and the expression of it is normal, and healthy. I love you Blue, keep the Faith, talk to God, He will respond to your deep yearning. I can promise you that.... Smile, God loves you, and so do we, just like you are....