Originally Posted by nomorehorses

Good morning everyone! I will be 54 in Dec. I fell on the basement floor (wet floor and bare feet) and as my backside hit the concrete full force, my lower back also hit the last wooden step in March 2005. My life has changed drastically since that day. I used to ride horses, swim, garden and have a job. Now I am about useless. I have taken care of my dad for the last 7 months and he has recently passed away from brain cancer (May 18) This took a toll on my back as well as emotionally. Since 2005 I have seen a total of 13 Doctors and Chiros. I have had therapy/water therapy (I still do exercises every day) si injection (lasted 4 days) spinal injection (lasted 2 weeks) thousands of dollars in Chiro adjustments and last month I was on the Medrol pack which ended with me in the ER. I have taken no pain medication this entire time until the newest Dr recently put me on the Medrol and a muscle relaxer (Xanax) for muscle spasms and I have stopped both since they made me sick and a little crazy. Ultram took the pain away but made me sick as well. I am in the city now getting my father's Condo ready to sell. My husband and I are now talking about selling our farm and moving back closer to the city so I can continue with treatment here. My question is what do I do next? I am afraid of any kind of surgery which will make it worse and THAT I could not tolerate. I have had terrible headaches since I was 12. The day I fell, the headaches stopped and the tailbone/sciatic pain started. Go figure? I have also changed mentally since the fall. I never used to be afraid of anything, my husband and I used to fish on the river all the time. Now I am petrified of water and crossing bridges over water. My horses are now pasture ornaments. My husband doesn't know who this new person is and frankly, neither do I. I HATE it! Sorry to make my first posting so long but I am in real need of advice. I have been alone at my father's Condo since Dec 1, I cry everyday from the pain and frustration. My husband is back at the farm (2 1/2 hours away) taking care of my horses and dogs and working his regular job. I try to think of other people who have it worse than I do, but I am SO tired of fighting pain since age 12. Again, sorry to make this post so long but I am looking for advice and maybe a miracle. :-)