And one thing that bothers me about not remembering what it felt like to feel good... is that my two younger kids....ten years younger than two older kids. The younger ones will not have memories of me feeling good, playing ball with them, running around outside, and just enjoying life.... My two older ones remember that. But the younger ones won't because it didn't happen that way in there lifetime. Maybe they will have good memories of a different sort.... I HOPE!