i have only been afraid of going to sleep during periods where, because of meds, i was having repeated parasomnias - repeated semi-awakenings throughut the night where i would have sleep paralysis and typical accompanying hypnagogic/hypnapomping hallucinations (like with someone trying to strangle me or whatever).

i am wondering like Bizi if it has to do with fear of not being able to go to sleep... or not being able to get up by a certain time... that is another instance when i am afraid to go to sleep - when i have to be up the next day for any reason, and i have been suffering insomnia so i am afraid i won't fall asleep in time and then won't wake up. then i get feeling like i MUST SLEEP NOW, and the harder i try, the harder i fail... the more awake and anxious i get, and the later it gets, the worse it gets... a vicious cycle.

can you connect the fear to anything specific? are you afraid of losing control? are there any other things that bring on this fear, besides sleep? is it fear of sleep at any time (eg napping) or just the "formally" going to bed at night - or whenever?

definitely talk to your doctor about this. if you are still dealing with manic symptoms... the less you sleep, the less you sleep.


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