The sun came out today!
We’re born again, there’s new grass on the field.
A-roundin’ third, and headed for home, it’s a brown-eyed gorgeous chick;
Anyone can understand the way I feel.

Oh, put me in, coach - I’m ready to play today;
Put me in, coach - I’m ready to play today;
Look at me, I can be centerfield.


After nearly one year, I think I am back!!!! Back from the exacerbation from hell which caused not only illness and pain but weight gain and a cane. Back from a depression so severe that I had my exit all planned. Back to remembering what used to make me happy and who I loved.

It's been nothing short of he11, but this is the first opportunity where I think there might be a light at the end of the proverbial tunnel. And it comes during the week that my husband lost his job (Chrysler bankruptcy). Go figure.

I have a long way to go but ths is the first time that I have felt it is possible. I'll take it.

Thanks to all who left IMs, sent cards, emails, etc and never received a response back. I'm sorry, I was incapable. Honest. Thanks to those who kept sending them anyway assuming that one day they would be read and answered. And thanks to all who noticed I was even gone. You will not ever be forgotten. I promise you that.

On top of everything else, my father's death sent me spiraling even faster downward. I don't think I shall ever get over this. I loved him so much, it hurt. But I am trying and I have gotten this far, so.....

Anyway, I'm ready to play.....today....I can be centerfield.